text: Well, how to begin... Start of teenage years, horrible emotional memories, should've been guided through with support from my father, but the opposite happened. Non stop abuse, never was too bothered about the physical abuse, the mental abuse is what stands out and hurt so so much, had zero confidence, couldn't talk to girls, was convinced I was the ugliest most unloveable worthless waste of space in the  world, my father absolutely convinced me of it. Left lasting emotional damage, completely ruined what should've been my fun-filled adventurous teenage years, feel a lot of anger and resentment that my childhood was not only robbed but solely aimed at mentally torturing me to make sure I would struggle with huge emotional issues for the rest of my life. I can never forgive because I can never do it over again, if I could then great lessons could've been learned and it could have been done a lot better, but it's forever gone and I'm forever damaged, struggle to want to even live, and that's horrible for anyone to have to have gone through and to put up with for the rest of your life. 