text_original: Since Trelawny's decease, as she has more fearlessly allowed her thoughts to dwell on him, she has suffered all the anxiety of expecting to hear from him, and all the bitterness of disappointment. And I could plainly perceive, that she was still debating with herself, whether, if he _did_ apply to her, she should accept him, or by a violent effort of heroism determine to see him no more. This conflict is yet to come.
text_transcription: SINCE TRELAWNE'S DECEASE AS SHE HAS MORE FEARLESSLY ALLOWED HER THOUGHTS TO DWELL ON HIM SHE HAS SUFFERED ALL THE ANXIETY OF EXPECTING TO HEAR FROM HIM AND ALL THE BITTERNESS OF DISAPPOINTMENT AND I COULD PLAINLY PERCEIVE THAT SHE WAS STILL DEBATING WITH HERSELF WHETHER IF HE DID APPLY TO HER SHE SHOULD ACCEPT HIM OR BY A VIOLENT EFFORT OF HEROISM DETERMINED TO SEE HIM NO MORE THIS CONFLICT IS YET TO COME
phonemes: sˈɪns tɹˈɛlɔːniz dᵻsˈiːs, æz ʃiː hɐz mˈɔːɹ fˈɪɹləsli ɐlˈaʊd hɜː θˈɔːts tə dwˈɛl ˈɔn hˌɪm, ʃiː hɐz sˈʌfɚd ˈɔːl ðɪ æŋzˈaɪəɾi ʌv ɛkspˈɛktɪŋ tə hˈɪɹ fɹʌm hˌɪm, ænd ˈɔːl ðə bˈɪtɚnəs ʌv dˌɪsɐpˈɔɪntmənt. ænd aɪ kʊd plˈeɪnli pɚsˈiːv, ðæt ʃiː wʌz stˈɪl dᵻbˈeɪɾɪŋ wɪð hɜːsˈɛlf, wˈɛðɚ, ɪf hiː dˈɪd ɐplˈaɪ tə hɜː, ʃiː ʃˌʊd ɐksˈɛpt hˌɪm, ɔːɹ baɪ ɐ vˈaɪələnt ˈɛfɚt ʌv hˈɛɹoʊˌɪzəm dɪtˈɜːmɪn tə sˈiː hˌɪm nˈoʊmˌɔːɹ. ðɪs kˈɑːnflɪkt ɪz jˈɛt tə kˈʌm.