text_original: And by the odd irony of the whole thing, this was the time when I was indeed nearest to madness, and really required careful watching; not that of warders or of repression, be it understood, but of the affection which is unhappily not made to order. I had been called suicidal and homicidal when I was no danger to anybody.
text_transcription: AND BY THE OLD IRONY OF THE WHOLE THING THIS WAS THE TIME WHEN I WAS INDEED NEAREST TO MADNESS AND REALLY REQUIRED CAREFUL WATCHING NOT THAT OF WARDERS OR OF REPRESSION BE IT UNDERSTOOD BUT OF AFFECTION WHICH IS UNHAPPILY NOT MADE TO ORDER I HAD BEEN CALLED SUICIDAL AND HOMICIDAL WHEN I WAS NO DANGER TO ANYBODY
phonemes: ænd baɪ ðɪ ˈɑːd ˈaɪɹəni ʌvðə hˈoʊl θˈɪŋ, ðɪs wʌzðə tˈaɪm wɛn aɪ wʌz ˌɪndˈiːd nˌɪɹɪst tə mˈædnəs, ænd ɹˈiəli ɹᵻkwˈaɪɚd kˈɛɹfəl wˈɑːtʃɪŋ; nˌɑːt ðæt ʌv wˈɔːɹdɚz ɔːɹ ʌv ɹᵻpɹˈɛʃən, biː ɪɾ ˌʌndɚstˈʊd, bˌʌt ʌvðɪ ɐfˈɛkʃən wˌɪtʃ ɪz ʌnhˈæpɪli nˌɑːt mˌeɪd tʊ ˈɔːɹdɚ. aɪ hɐdbɪn kˈɔːld sˌuːɪsˈaɪdəl ænd hˌɑːmɪsˈaɪdəl wɛn aɪ wʌz nˈoʊ dˈeɪndʒɚ tʊ ˈɛnɪbˌɑːdi.