text_original: I really meant what I said. I wanted to give myself up to art, and you, for the unbroken year — to have no other thought, no distractions— and I knew that his letters would be a dis  traction—that the mere expectation of them— the looking for post time — the wondering whether I should have his letter by this or that post— I knew all that kind of thing would unnerve me. IMy hand would have lost its power.
text_transcription: I REALLY MEANT WHAT I SAID I WANTED TO GIVE MYSELF UP TO ART AND YOU FOR THE UNBROKEN YEAR TO HAVE NO OTHER THOUGHT NO DISTRACTIONS AND I KNEW THAT HIS LETTERS WOULD BE A DISTRACTION THAT THE MERE EXPECTATION OF THEM THE LOOKING FOR POST TIME THE WONDERING WHETHER I SHOULD HAVE HIS LETTER BY THIS OR THAT POST I KNEW ALL THAT KIND OF THING WOULD UNNERVE ME MY HAND WOULD HAVE LOST ITS POWER
phonemes: aɪ ɹˈiəli mˈɛnt wʌt aɪ sˈɛd. aɪ wˈɔntᵻd tə ɡˈɪv maɪsˈɛlf ˌʌp tʊ ˈɑːɹt, ænd juː, fɚðɪ ʌnbɹˈoʊkən jˈɪɹ — tə hæv nˈoʊ ˈʌðɚ θˈɔːt, nˈoʊ dɪstɹˈækʃənz— ænd aɪ nˈuː ðæt hɪz lˈɛɾɚz wʊd biː ɐ dˈɪs tɹˈækʃən—ðætðə mˈɪɹ ɛkspɪktˈeɪʃən ʌv ðˌɛm— ðə lˈʊkɪŋ fɔːɹ pˈoʊst tˈaɪm — ðə wˈʌndɚɹɪŋ wˈɛðɚɹ aɪ ʃˌʊdəv hɪz lˈɛɾɚ baɪ ðɪs ɔːɹ ðæt pˈoʊst— aɪ nˈuː ˈɔːl ðæt kˈaɪnd ʌv θˈɪŋ wʊd ʌnnˈɜːv mˌiː. ɪmˈaɪ hˈænd wʊdhɐv lˈɔst ɪts pˈaʊɚ.